Tough Day

This is such a tough day for us.  We have some how escaped this form that we were supposed to fill out early on in the adoption.  It's now to the point that it must be done.  Karla emailed it to me last night.  It is called the "Child Desired Form."  It sounds bad I know, but it is one of those forms that give the agency a better understanding in order to match you with a child.  We knew this day would come. The form was shown to us at the very beginning and Karla said to research it and begin thinking about it well over a year ago.

The form is very specific and you have to choose (yes or no) whether you would like to be matched with a child with that need.  This is so difficult.  I don't want to decide.  I think about all the precious little ones that need to be loved and need safe stable homes.  It hurts me if we check no then it turns away a child.  I know that I can't adopt them all and that Grace is God's perfect pick for our family.  But I still can't help those feelings that I'm dealing with in regards to this form. We just have to make it through this day and through this step.  Pray for our strength to make the right decisions.  We want to make sure that all our decisions are completely led by God.

Thankfully, I know a wonderful man who also has a passion for children in China.  I am going to visit with Dr. Wang who is going to help me by giving me better knowledge of the medical conditions that I am unclear about.  We need to know as much as possible about the short/long term of conditions before marking yes or no.

Thanks for your prayers!

Much love,